I failed Caleb once because I was a coward. And he ended up paying the price.
Ten years of war and the loss of nearly his entire family have left thirty-four-year-old former sniper, Jace Christenson, with nothing to come home to. And he prefers it that way. Life consists of his work in an underground vigilante group, the near-constant search for the last remaining link to who he used to be, and a string of meaningless sexual encounters that serve only one purpose… to make it easier to not feel anything anymore.
But when Jace gets the call that the young man he saved two years earlier has gone missing, he’s forced to deal with the truth he’s been trying to deny from the moment he laid eyes on Caleb Cortano.
That the young man is so very much more than just the exception to all his rules…
You know how if something shatters when it breaks, there’s no way to find all the pieces to put it back like it once was? Maybe sometimes it’s better not to even try…
Nineteen-year-old Caleb Cortano has been barely hanging onto his sanity in the two years since the truth about his father’s depravities came to light. A victim of the man’s crimes himself, Caleb has only managed to find any semblance of peace when he’s in the presence of the man who saved him once before.
But when he finally comes to accept that Jace Christenson wants nothing to do with someone who’s shattered beyond repair, Caleb finds another way to seek solace from the pain inside.
As the fear of being reunited with the father he both fears and misses becomes more and more likely, desperation has Caleb doing something foolish that brings him face to face with the only man he’s ever wanted… but who doesn’t want him back.
Caleb stays with me until we get some answers… just me…
When Caleb’s life is threatened, Jace refuses to walk away a second time. Even if protecting Caleb means he’s risking his own heart, Jace isn’t going anywhere. At least not until he can put some of the missing pieces of Caleb’s life back together.
But will Caleb be able to do the same for the equally broken Jace?
Will two shattered men be able to find all the missing pieces to be who they were truly meant to, or is Caleb right? Some things just aren’t worth trying to fix…
NOTE: While this book has all the elements of my romances including plenty of steamy times, some lighter moments and the ever-important HEA, IT IS A VERY INTENSE READ, so PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE PROCEED WITH CAUTION. While I’ve done my best to find a balance between sensitivity and realism in relation to dealing with the issue of sexual assault against a minor, this book does not gloss over the subject and some readers may find it difficult to read.
Trigger Warning: Sexual Assault Against a Minor, Other triggers may be considered “spoilerish” so they can be found by using the “Look Inside” feature or by downloading the sample and going to the section entitled “Trigger Warning.”
*Can be read as a standalone novel.
Finally !!! Caleb and Jace !! I know I am not the only one who has been anxiously waiting for their story and I am very glad to say, that the wait was definitely worth it. 😉
I have been a fan of these two since they were introduced in “Forsaken”, which was Eli and Mav’s story. Caleb was Eli’s, then 17 years old, stepbrother. It was pretty obvious Caleb and Jace had something magical between them, but I also agreed with Sloane, that Caleb had some growing up to do first. 😉
Normally I would say, that all Sloane’s books can be read as standalone. I wouldn’t advise doing so, with this one though…I think, that to fully understand what is going on between Jace and Caleb, you should read Eli’s story first (and all the ones after that)!!
Two years have passed, since Jace rescued Caleb, from a mental facility. Caleb is now 19 years old, but things haven’t gotten much better for him. When he finds out what happened at his (step)brother Eli’s hearing, he freaks and runs away.
Jace has always felt guilty for leaving Caleb behind two years ago.
He knows Caleb had a crush on him, but he was just so damn young. Jace also didn’t think he was good for anybody and he didn’t deserve Caleb’s hero worship. Seeing how bad Caleb is actually doing, has him regretting his decision even more. But maybe he can make things right again…Maybe he will be able to protect Caleb this time around, even if he has to hurt his own heart in the process.
And maybe, after two years, they will finally be able, to fix each other’s broken pieces…Even though Caleb is not sure he can be fixed…
“You know how if something shatters when it breaks, there’s no way to find all the pieces to put it back like it once was? Maybe sometimes it’s better to not even try…”
Thankfully Jace is not one to give up that easily… 😉
“No matter how many times you fall and shatter into a million pieces, I’ll spend every day of the rest of our lives helping you find any pieces that remain.”
Jace and Caleb are two of my favorite characters out of all Sloane’s books. I genuinely liked both of them. They were so sweet together. From the moment Jace met Caleb all he wanted to do was take care of him. And Caleb, who has been through so much…my heart broke for him. He was so strong, even though he definitely didn’t see himself that way.
I think the previous 2 books have been a bit, dare I say, “mild” in comparison to all the other books in this series. This one is a bit heavier on the angst and emotions again. Which is also why Sloane has added a trigger warning in the beginning of the book.
Now, this book didn’t make me cry as much as my favorites “Finding Hope” and “Redeeming Rafe” or even some of the others that gutted me, but it was still very emotional at times. This book deals with sexual child-abuse/rape and self-harm, so please take note if this is a trigger for you.
I myself am a big fan of the “more angsty” books. It’s one of the reasons I got hooked on this series. That’s not to say that I won’t read any of the others…I will read anything Sloane writes down, but the angsty/suspense/emotional ones definitely have my preference.
Highly recommended and yes…I am now anxiously waiting for Aleks’ book…I love him!! ❤